I was to a certain extent and this would vary from individual to individual. The most detested weapon on earth far more silly than the hydrogen bomb. Real early up I began to see radiation, nuclear radiation as an effective means of waging ground warfare in a relatively moral way because the neutron bomb is the most discriminative weapon ever devised there's a very sharp cutoff between the radius out to which the enemy will be killed and where the friendly troops are positioned. If you're like roughly a thousand yards away you within a matter of minutes are going to be rendered totally incapacitated and physiologically you will be one of the most miserable creatures imaginable You will be vomiting your guts out your head will be bursting and within a matter of less is considerably less than an hour you'll be dead. So I don't claim any god-given uniqueness as being the only one on earth that really understands what this business is all about. I don't. I never have and I never will. It's not about logic and it's not about rationality. And I'll add one it's not even about sanity.