Cleaning Up The Past – Memories of a Green Spotted Jaquar
I'm cleaning up this place because I'm planning on making a big move. I ran across this momento and decided its time to let go of it. Its the cake decoration from a cake that was delivered to me at Honeywell on my 30th birthday. The bird is a vulture. It was a "death because you are 30 years old" theme cake. It was from a girl who was crazy beautiful and crazy-crazy. I first spotted her at Squaw Peak when I was driving in to park and hike. I took one look and was amazed by beautiful and vibrant she appeared. I' would never end up dating her would I? She looked directly in through my windshield with a penetrating look.
Later on top of the mountain I encountered her with her male friend and introduced myself. In those days I was pretty enough to pull off such an introduction while a lady was on a date. Turns out she was getting a math/physics degree from NAU and she is very intelligent. But then super attractive super intelligent women have alot of options don't they? Its remarkable what a little mental instability can do to make a very attractive girl even more attractive. This elusive animal that you seek in the endless maze that is dating hoping not to see the elusive prey scurry off beyond your reach. You have to have be elusive yourself and lure them to you. Once they are in close enough you can latch on and give it your best shot to make them your own. Of course the most likely scenario is that you should be trying to keep this sort of green spotted jaguar. They'll most likely turn on you and claw you in their need to escape just as this one did to me.
We went out once and had a good time but she was elusive. I tried the good boy routine with signalling the wide open I am all yours approach and it did not work. At the point I lapsed back into my normal routine of chatting up all the pretty ones on Squaw Peak. On several occassions as she descended she would pass me walking up with a pretty thing. It was not long before she made herself more available. At that point we had a good 4 monthes together where I have to saw I quite enjoyed myself.
Being the tenacious monkey that I am I kept track all these years. She ended up marrying a fellow that now suffers taking care of her a bit like a child because you see when you have so many options you can afford to lean on people. If said people complain you move on to your next option and essentially that is what she did with me when I did not give her exactly what she wanted in spite of my trying.
Oh well. What might have been with a little more willingness to work on her part. I will always remember this time and how it lead to a much more fully actualized person and a much happier me. At least its not me baby sitting her. Me? I want a partner. So it is time to let go.. Bye Bye Birdie. Danna whereever you are I hope you are happy and having a good time. I will never forget our adventures.
